Thursday, June 25, 2009

i am careful what i wish for

i like the fact that i can control my thoughts and daydreams. i wish that were true for my nightdreams.
my mother passed away in 1992. on my 50th birthday nine years later, before i blew out the candles on my cake, my wish was that my mother would be in my dreams that night. well, like most wishes, it didn't come true. but over the years my mother, my father, and my grandparents have come to be with me while i was sleeping. i could see them. i could hear them. we were together. my dad and i played in the garden. my granddad held open the gate while i drove his old Ford tractor thru. mom would talk to me and make me laugh.
last night, once again, they were absent in my dreams. but someone was in my dream world last night. one who i have not dreamt of in many years. if i had made a wish last night it would have been to dream that dream.

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  2. yes - but left me wanting more.

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  3. After my mother died, I prayed she would visit in my sleep. Nothing. I sensed she avoided me because she knew of my anger toward her and the mess she left behind. After I put things behind me, she came one night.

    She walked toward me to get my attention, then swirled around and receded into the darkness. She wore all the colors I associate with her; she wore her hair in a soft graying halo. She has not visited since...

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  5. she will be back. probably when you least expect it. possibly tonight.

    i do know that when my mother, or anyone, comes to visit while i am sleeping it is the next best thing to actually seeing them in person. it is so real. pleasant dreams.

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  6. wow! 7 hours ago i was commenting on dream mothers and just a few minutes ago my mom gently shook me awake and told me "you know you feel so much better if you get off the couch and go to bed". she looked so pretty.

    i'm going now, mom.

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